22nd October 2010 (Fri)
Had the usual routine check up Dr WK Tan. Baby is doing well. So is mummy. He is now 2.4kg as of 34 weeks. Seems like baby wee is putting on 200g per week. At this rate he's going to be born weighing 3.6kg at birth. Hope he's not considered too big to go through the birth canal. I'm really hoping for an all natural birth. Don't want to do C-section unless really no choice.
After the checkup, mummy and papa went to the Baby Fair held at EXPO. The fair was really small but we mananged to get a 4 in 1 baby cot and the parklon play mat for baby wee. Good buys I must say. Other than that we bought a rubber mat for bath as well as a dress for mummy and a nursing cover.
23rd October 2010 (Sat)
12:40 am - My Phone received an SMS but was fast asleep so I did not respond.
"Ah Ma has passed away"
12:44am - Anothe SMS came in.
"Stay home" (probably cos I'm pregant and mum didn't want me to go down immediately)
2:04am - Another SMS came in. This time I was awaken by the SMS cos I had to head to the toilet.
"Will need chinese names for obituary. Call me when awake."
Upon reading these 3 smses, I froze. I woke hubby up to tell him and then the tears started flowing from there. Couldn't get to sleep after. Stayed awake in bed for the next 3 hours, even went online for a bit just to try to get my mind off things. Finally slept at about 5+ before waking up at 8+am. Had breakfast with my parents before heading home to rest for abut then headed to grandma's to pay my respects. Seeing her in the coffin for the first time broke my heart. However I do know that she is in a better place in the hands of God. She has finally regained her freedom which her physical body constrainted her for the past 4 years.
Before her illness struck her 4 years ago, I remember grandma to be one who was very active, energetic and a go getter. Ah ma was the greatest woman that I will ever know in my life time. Although she was seen as our Empress Dowager but we know that she loved each and everyone of us. She truly cared and this was evident through her actions.
What will I remember her for I asked myself today:
Single handedly she raised her 6 kids after my ah gong passed away over 30 years ago. She ensured that they were brought up well and had good families. Each of her 13 grand childern also were showered with Love. I remember how she loved to cook a feast for the entire family on Sundays. After cooking an entire morning , she will then sit at the head of the table in her pyjamas and just enjoy watching us feast away at her cooking. She will not eat much but there were always so much smiles from her knowing how much we enjoyed eating what she had prepared.
As active as she was, she also enjoys buying food from all over singapore and then buy 5 extra packets and go to each of her children's houses and drop off the food for their families. She ensured that all her grandchildren had as much education as possible. Even if our parents couldn't really afford it, grandma will sponsor a part of our education. It is with Thanks to grandma that I had a chance to go to australia to study. Thanks Grandma.
Ah ma also had a love for food. She loved to eat out and whenever she felt like having a meal outside she'll ring our house to ask if we wanted to head out to eat. Going out for lunch somehow seemed like an adventure and we never ever rejected her call.
Grandma also loved to travel lots. In her life, she's travelled to so many countries. Once she even paid an adult fare for me (when I was still a kid) to go with her to Japan on a holiday. This was so that I could share a room with her. That was how much she loved us.
Grandma was great in many ways. Be it her love for her kid/ grandkids or her foresight in property and business. She seemed to always be very sharp when it came to dealing with difficult situations as well. Grandma was just amazing in her own way.
I ♥ You Grandma. You will definately be very much missed my me. Thank you for taking care of us all these years.
Love
Meiyan