Progress Report

6 months since the last post. Where are we now.. hmmm Aug... no no no its already Sept. Oh gosh how time flies.

Let's see what has happened?

Personally I have gone back to work part time and started running my very own business. Yes! I'm a BOSS at last! Not easy but I have to reap hard before I can sow hard. Its been a learning journey and I'm still learning along my journey. HUAT AH! (this means good luck for business in my chinese ethnic group).

The boys are growing well, playing well, fighting well. There is the close brotherly love and need for their personal space as well.

Big Brother R is in his final term of school for the year. Oh man how time flies... soon i'll be in the mad hunt for a primary school. He has picked up swimming and is doing great... hmm what class shall i pick for him next (*kiasu mummy instincts kicking in)

Baby Brother D is just evolving in his own way. He has found his way to communicate with us in whatever he can pronounce and try really hard to do so. He is one cutie. Can't imagine he is already 1.5 year old. A little fighter I must say. Fights with the brother over the ownership of toys yets he also fights for my attention. Can't have enough cuddles from him.

Hubby and I have decided.... we are going to have our 2nd HONEYMOON! Tickets are booked, so is the hotel. Now time to plan our itineary. YAY!!!

Moment to Treasure....

I'm in Love. Yes that's right I'm in Love with my husband and my kids. Nothing makes me more happy than being able to be with them. As much as I've had the toughest decision to tender in January, being a SAHM for the past 3 Mths have given me moments which I would definately have missed if I was at work. Just today my little 3 year old decided before his afternoon nap to play treasure hunter. With his fingers mimicking a binoculars, he went around the room in search of his treasure. He then came right up to me open his arms hugged me and said :"mummy I found treasure!" The gleam in his eyes and the sparkling white teeth made me feel wonderful at that moment. He's growing up too fast! Soon I'll be missing his cuddles and kisses.

The younger one on the other hand is growing up as well. Can't believe that he's turning one in 2 weeks time! Busy busy planning for his party. He's been a real gem. His smiles are wonderful and his hugs are so sincere. What I enjoy most about him are his need to cuddle mum at night. He's starting to walk so much that I'm already missing his crawling and just sitting there stages. Blabbling and learning to be involved in conversations. Loving the little one.

Hubby has been busy on weekdays but weekends are always good with him around. I love us as couple and as parents to the lovely two boys. He's a great dad and I know he has a soft spot not only for me but for the mischievous lovely monkeys.

Love

Mummy of R&D

Just a miserable liar....

My emotions are in a state of turmoil right now. I just tendered my job last Friday after a long battle of thoughts and considerations. At the end of the day, I really feel sad about it. The people who are involved in my thought process seem to take it so easy... No one really ask how I feel. I feel like I didn't really have a choice. I feel upset although taking care of my kids should be my priority but am I suppose to be happy about not working for a period of time? What am I going to do? How do I earn my own keep without relying on anyone else? What's gonna happen? Success or multiple failures to come before me? How do I strive to be able to provides kids the best stuff? I'm just lost... I'm not dissing any SAHM here as I know it's hard work sacrificing everything for the kids but will I degenerate, have no friends and no life. Will all the years I spent studying just go to waste. Attaining my masters was my proudest moment in life... But what now?  Do I have the capability to attain the expectations set by others around me or will I just be viewed useless and a bum?

God I need u to guide me and give me strength for what lies ahead....