Just a miserable liar....

My emotions are in a state of turmoil right now. I just tendered my job last Friday after a long battle of thoughts and considerations. At the end of the day, I really feel sad about it. The people who are involved in my thought process seem to take it so easy... No one really ask how I feel. I feel like I didn't really have a choice. I feel upset although taking care of my kids should be my priority but am I suppose to be happy about not working for a period of time? What am I going to do? How do I earn my own keep without relying on anyone else? What's gonna happen? Success or multiple failures to come before me? How do I strive to be able to provides kids the best stuff? I'm just lost... I'm not dissing any SAHM here as I know it's hard work sacrificing everything for the kids but will I degenerate, have no friends and no life. Will all the years I spent studying just go to waste. Attaining my masters was my proudest moment in life... But what now?  Do I have the capability to attain the expectations set by others around me or will I just be viewed useless and a bum?

God I need u to guide me and give me strength for what lies ahead....