Growing Up a little to fast....

Today marks the day that my little precious R who turned 2 not too long ago (1 month and 2 weeks to be exact) begins his school journey. For months i've been prepping him for this day, the person whom I forgot to prep was myself. Since yesterday evening I was already feeling so much anxiety over ensuring that he has everything that he needs for school in his bag. From tagging his uniform to labelling the bottles and getting him to take responsibility of packing his own school bag as well as ironing his uniform. Even hubby commented that "WoW its been ages since you held an iron." The maternal protective instinct is coming out I guess, ensuring that his first day of school will be perfect. After hubby and son fell asleep, i laid awake throughout the night often turning to look at the clock. It was as though it was my own very first day at school... Can't imagine what i'll be like on on night before my son's first exam, wedding etc...

This morning was perfect. The weather was cool and slightly gloomy but I knew that he'll be okay. He was happy and excited for school. Took a shower then carried his own uniform to get changed and had his hair nicely comb before looking at the special sandwiches that mummy prepared for him in his brand new lunch box. Sandwiches shaped like stars and hearts for his special day. Took a few snapshots for memories and off to school we went.

We arrived early at the school and therefore got a parking lot. Walked him to the drop off point and through the health check point and off he was holding the teacher's hand. After a while the teacher guided him into the lift and off he was independently on his own with the teachers whom i have to trust will take good care of my precious. While he was brave throughout the entire process, mummy couldn't help but stood behind a pillar and started tearing... My little one is so brave and independent. Didn't want to shatter his confidence because I was that slightly more emotional.

Hubby and I then headed to the canteen to wait just in case a phone call came my way. After an hour or so, i headed to the kindy premises to see if i could get a sneak peek. I stood outside the class only to see a well behaved boy who was enjoying himself in class. I'm definitely very very proud of you Baby R!!!

Mummy and Daddy Loves u more than you can imagine!!!

Introducing Our New Bundle of Joy

Yes Yes! He's finally here, introducing Baby D.

Here's the birth story;
14th March: Abt 4:30pm was in the toilet and there i had it a bloody show. I thought it was the mucus plug as that point of time i wasn't sure of the difference. Started googling on mucus plug and hoe soon till delivery ... Apparently hours, days, weeks. Called the clinic as i wasn't sure what to do next. Sister Han gave me an appointment for the next morning 9am and to monitor for any contractions.

Drove over to Mum's to return the car and pick little R up. Arranged for hubby to pick us instead of driving home as i just wasn't sure... Felt excited yet worried.

On the way home i even had a drive through macs for supper. Had a quarter pounder with cheese, fries and and mango pineapple frappe. Even joked with hubby that this might be my last meal before delivery.

15th March 2013: 3am woke to head to the toilet as usual. This time something disn't feel right. Having on off cramps every 5 mins. Wasn't intense but i senses this was it. I knew what contractions felt like before so this was contractions.

3:30am: Woke the husband to get ready. Got mum to come over to baby sit sleeping Little R as well as ferry him to school that day.

4:30am: Checked into delivery ward. Placed under observation for about an hour. Dilated 2-3cm. Given enema to clear bowels the was moved to delivery suite room 3.

8:30am : Dr Tan arrived. Checked 2cm. Burst water bag and was offered breakfast. She mentioned still long way probably afternoon. This time i was a little smarter. Ordered the sandwiches for breakfast instead of the porridge as for no.1 i had porridge and by 6pm i was starving...

9:30am: Opted for epidural. Didn't even try the gas mask this time. Damn it was painful without the gas. Scream and shouted... Think the anestatist also scared of me.

11:15am : Started pushing and preparing for delivery. Could feel baby pushing down on my V. The pressure was a lot more compared to previous one as epidural was less dosage.

11:47am: DONE!!!

In a few days....

I've yet to mention this in my blog but in a few days time... we are going to grow from a family of 3 to a family of 4.

Through the 9 months of carrying baby junior, I've yet to mention him at all in the blog, perhaps the excitement may have dwindled having had the first but this doesn't mean that I love him any less. I'm really looking forward to the day you'll be out of my womb and into my arms where I'll be able to cradle you and shower you with lots of love.

I reckon having 1 kid and having 2 is rather different. Having 1 means that all attention can be focused on just that 1. Having 2 we'll have different issues to manage. I really do hope that Little R is prepared for his brother, so far we've been telling him positive things about having a brother and making him feel really good about being a big brother. He can't wait for the little one to come play with him his soccer ball.

Currently I do have some doubts if I can be a good mum to both equally. I've been so used to having just 1 little R and most of the time I'm exhausted already. Where am I going to find the energy for 2? However I know that a mother's love is the greatest in the whole wide world and I'll be able to handle it when the time comes. Just hope that neither will ever doubt my love for them.

With Love,
Mummy of Little R and Junior